28 Mei 2011

assalamualaikum...^_^

just nk buat sedikit coretan mengenai pertemuan indah ku semalam.ehehhe

semalam i met my Mr. Muchuk......rasa happy sgt2 walau terasa sekejap sgt.... ^_^'

even da lama x jmpe beliau..tp setiap kali tgk beliau..rs sayang sangat2 and perasaan sayang ni x pnh berubah.. owh my Mr. Muchuk........ sila la tahu..bahawa saya sangat2 sayangkn anda..HANYA ANDA MR.MUCHUK!

- Teman -

assalamualaikum.....^_^

entry kali ni aku tulis..disbbkn rs rindu yg semakin menebal pd teman2 seperjuanganku...rindunya!! rindu2!! hihih =)

hurm...da hampir sebulan terpisah ngn kawan2..........perpisahan yg mungkin mengambil masa yg lama utk bersua kembali.. hurm...sedeynya...... ='(  s0..bila terkenang kembali saat2 bersama kawan2..mst ter'recal'' memacam memory.. baik yg manis..masin..yg suka..yg duka.. smua ada... =D itukan lumrah hidup....hihi. manusia mempunyai 1001 perangai dan sikap utk terus hidup...... =)

....sepanjang hidup 6 tahun kt uia..hurm...i try to recall ade x scene where i hurt my friend directly or indirectly.. siyes~ i feel so bad if there were... ='( i won't hurt my friends...and i wont hurt anybody......it is b'coz i'm hurt even more when i make people hurt...its really d0es~

back then..since at mtrix...i tried my best to treat best my friends..all of them....especially the close ones.... =)

its ok..if me yg terasa hati or what..sbb for me...kite x rugi pape utk jd baek....(even xde la baek mane pun kamu tu aina..lalala~haha ) what u did..u get back... =) kadang2..bila kita berhadapan ngn kwn2 yg cerewet...yg byk cekadak..yg byk bunyi..tp buatnye tak....yg suka ckp lepas...yg suka perli2.. tipu la kalo kite x rs annoyed and irritating... s0.... org akan rs bnda yg sm bila kite pun jd cmtu... thus..the best way..jgn jd bnda yg kita sndiri x suka...hehehe...simple right???

...sad story....

dulu ms kt U..pnh skali...aku nangis teruk disbbkn seorang kwn ni..ehehehe..........nk cerita dr awl...tkut hbs lak ink kt blog ni..so aku pndekkn crita...de la mslh pribadi sesama kawan..<only involve 2 party...me and tteett.....> heee....... first time nangis sbb kwn..tu pun sbb..aku da lama b'sabar..alm0st 3 years.....last2... bila my sabar da reached tahap maxima...aku pun mengambil keputusan utk menangis senangis nangisnya... hehehe.. bersaksikn seorang sahabat... <malunya time tu....> =D

tp pas da nangis tu..aku rs lega..lega sbb da luahkn prasaan kekecamukkn jiwa aku pd sahabat aku tu... heee. b'4 that..aku feel sorg2 je..jiwa kacau pun sorg2 je....kire sendiri tanggung la..hehehe...aku rs..tu la m0ment plg x best spnjg kt uia...sbb aku rs disc0mfort ngn sum1 yg pnh jd kwn baek aku satu ms dahulu.....when it c0mes to people u love m0st..its really hurting~ --'

pd aku....bia la aku terasa or sedih dr kawan2 yg terasa..bukan nk berlagak baek ke ape..tp x best la if de masalah ngn kwn2...aku x suka bila ade feeling uneasy or discomfort bila b'dpn ngn kwn2... environment nti jd pura2..buruk tau bila kite jd hypocrite...n0 n0 no.~ I DUN LIKE~ ^__^v

tp....aku bersyukur sgt2 sbb di hadirkn kawan2 yg baek < referring to my best buddies.. M, N, S and B>...diorg ni jenis yg x kesa..x berkira..n yg plg pntg...bukan jns yg suka ngumpat sesama sndiri.. ramai je yg aku jmpe...  sesama geng pun kutuk sn..kutuk sini..adoi~ last2..porak peranda..bukan rumah tngga je porak peranda..kawan2 pun ley huru hara....heeeeee ^__^'

s0.....my point of view....ape sgt la nk terasa hati or merajuk2 ngn kwn2 ni nk di bndingkn ngn persahabatan yg da terjalin.....x untung ape pun.. bek kita happy2... if kawan ckp kasar..or perli2..kite just fikir...dye b'gurau tu..or...set on ur mind.."dye mmg cmtu".. nti kta xkn amik hati..hehehe... bila kita layan org ngn baek.. org pun akan layan kita ngn baik... =) 

.....or if guys takut termarah or terasa hati which may lead to perangai ala2 not nice t0 your friend..keep sum distance between u guys..ehehehe..s0. kamu x terkecil hati..dye pun x terkecil hati bila kamu mengecilkn hatinya kembali setelah hati kamu terkecil olehnya.....eheheh.. =) 

s0..... appreciate ur friends........^_^

4.30am, 15/5/2011

"Makin
kita mendekatiNya, makin teruji iman kita..

Makin byk
kita berdoa, makin byk ujian yg menimpa..

Kerana..
segala yg diminta tidak datang dgn segera,

Tapi ia
akan diperolehi..

Apabila
kita berjaya mengharungi..

Ujian
yang Dia beri..

Kerana
Allah tak memberi apa yg kita mahu..

Tapi Dia
memberi apa yg kita perlu..

Semoga
tabah selalu.." :) 

11:52, 7/5/2011

 

- Letihnya -

hurm....xda mood....rs cam sedeh je... ='( hurm... i need s0meone t0 talk t0..i need s0meone to cheer me up... and i need s0meone wh0 always can stay by myside....t0 share all my g0od and bad st0ries..hurm....

11:43, 1/5/2011

- malunyerrr~ -

uhuhu..hari yg agak memalukan..uhuhu.. td pg my parent suh amik adik yg bru balik dr kedah.. tp bukan amik kt Stesen Bus Larkin..kt stesen bus pekan Tiram ni je..ehehe... "......... ibu : kamu nti amik adik kamu... Me : me?? ibu : bawak kete..amik kt Tiram je......Me : erk...org takut la bu... Ibu : practice!....Me : erk......yer la....."

s0..dgn pnuh cnfident..ku bwk kete..mula2..ok..reverse dr garage umah..kelua ke jalan besa...smooth je.. TIBE2...opss! kete dpn break mengejut..kt bukit lak tu..pe lg..hik2..aku pun break terkejut...and as expected.. dut..dut..dut...engin kete pun mati..alamak..! start.. masuk gear..asal x gerak2..cluth x tekan hbs kot!..wat lg skali... tekan cluth bagai nk rak..masuk gear 1..lpskn handbreak... aish~~! asal still x gerak2 lg ni.. adoi~ l0r..x start upenye..punyelah nebes gile~ tgh2 alam lak engin kete tu ley mati..alhmdulillah xde kete kt belakang..try dkt 3x start.msuk gear..tekan clutch hbs.. alhmdulillah gerak.....ok2....keep moving...

then..smpai 1 simpang 3 ni...tibe2 engin cam nk mati lg..alamak~ and kebetulan de satu kenderaan ni..de la 2,3 mamat.. knderaan diorg kt simpang..kire nk kelua ke jalan besa..ahahaha.. bole pulak btul2 dpn kenderaan diorg..engin kete ku cam terbenti2..ala2 hidup segan mati x mahu. malu gilerrr.. tepat2 kt dpn kenderaan diorg..kete aku terus cam nk mati.. ya Allah...dr aku terhegeh2 and wat malu diri sndiri, aku terus prking tepi jalan and terus engin kete mati. ahahahhahaha..diorg pelan2 lalu sebelah and senyum smpai telinga..msti diorg sakan gelakkn aku..huh! uhuhuhu.....uhai~ mencinye~!! ^__^v

adik2 aku yg ikut gelak je..ahahaha..mmg malu..tp biaq pi la..yg pentg aku da displayed P sebesar2 alam kt cermin kete dpn blakang..then...kereta ku terus bergerak and menyusur ke pakan tiram.ehehehhe.. smpai tiram..my bro yg bawak..hehehehhe....

                                      1:41pm, 29/04/2011

- aduh! -

adesss....kenape la rs cam xde life je skrg ni.. cam byk bende yg x settle... kenapela i rs malas yg melampau2 ni..  nk buat keje smua jd malas~ <ish3..xm0 aina..xm0!!>  tp xde la tahap malas yg membunuh..
i ttp kms umah..memasak...cam td..i masak nasi ayam madu..alhmdulillah jd..hik3..<berkat refer kt 3 resepi yg i amik kt tenet and cmbine> ehehe..cuma...brg2 dr uia x hbs lg kemas..nek penuh bilik ngn brg2 yg i x tahu nk letak mane sbb my r0om looks like insufficient space. hurm...

hurm...ape nk jd aina?? adess~ 1 more thing...my family smua da risau tgk my weight..ahahaha... berat mata memandang..fahami la kalian..berat lg badan memikul..hik3..hurm..yup mummy...i'm on my way to reduce my weight..oh0h0ho..as my sis said.."u keep talking about diet3 for many3 times..but theres no change in ur weight.. aisshh!!". ahaha...c0ming s0on l0ng......kot..ehehehhe..

it same g0es to my feeling...rs cam blurr je..rs cam nk td0 je..<hah! membute plak....mana x bulat> adeh! hurm....tp xpe...i dalam usaha nk memperbaiki diri..mgkin sbb i gemuk ke org yg i sayang x appreciate i? dulu my ex suka compare my 'beauty' ngn girl2 yg suka dye.. xpe2..mentang2 kite x cantik..gemuk.. time suka...ye suka..tp dpt je prm cantik..trus tgglkan kite..hurm.. xperla. yg penting..kamu bahagia and happy! ehehe..i x kesa.... 

skrg..i xda so-called boyfriend. tp i de minat sgt2 kt sorang hamba Allah ni..hik3..dye da ade gf da..tp i x kesa..i dpt knl dye pun..i da rs happy sgt3..smua kwn bek i..my rumet n even my family tahu pasal dye.. n smua sedia mklum yg i syok habis kt dye..hik3..in the same time..smua tahu insan teristimewa i ni dah ade gf. saje i bgtahu diorg..lau x..diorg dok usik2 i..sdgkn kawan i tu dah ade gf..ehehehe..ni kire brani mati expose yg i syok sndiri kt public..kih3....^__^ first time ever in my life.........lalalala~~~

for now..dgn mud yg agak ngah d0wn..i x rs nk pk pasal llki..even jelez sgt2 tgk kt fb kwn2 dok tunang and kawen sana sini..yg tukar status relationship dr 'single' --> 'in relationship'.. uish..igt x jelez kite..um0 da 24..tapi single lg.ahahha.. kwn yg dlm pr0cess knl hati budi pun xde...kecuali insan teristimewa i tu...mmg i text/call dye je..ehehehe..bukan nk kacau bf org..tp.....................sbg kawan kot..........t0 his gf.. i'm really sory for crazily falling in love with ur man...............='(

hurm...i kna take corrective action ni......if org yg i sayang x ley nmpk and appreciate i..i shud appreciate diri i sndiri.. at least..i akan happy cam kwn2 i yg len..ehehe..tgk kwn yg xda bf..happy je..i yg pnh ade bf..tup2 kna tggl sbb bf i de prm len..ad0i~~~<malunye> ehehehe...tp xpe la..eheheh..len org..len2 dugaannya.. ehehe

ok....cukup kot luahan tuk ari ni.ehehehe.... for u ainaa shazwani...appreciate y0urself!!! be happy!! weeeeee v^___^v

24/4/2011. 4:05pm

- my ONLY one -

just now...i called my sweetheart..

s0 long not hearing any news about him..=(

hurm..he involved in accident few days ag0..
alhmdulillah hes ok...but with minor injury..

pity on myLove...but hopefully..everything will be fine 4 him....

he did ask me..d0 i have someone else??

did i already have boyfriend since lately i'm rarely contact him..

d0 i??

how could i see other guys while all my heart only LOVE him.....?

how could i looking for someone else while my mind only THINK of him...?

how could i want some else while all i wanted is only him....?

people might think i badly crazy about him..

yes! i think s0..

as my best friend used to say..

"its obviously that i've fallen for him...totally fall for him"

i once cried heavily when something unexpected happened between us..

and my friend said....

"...seriously..u love him too much! .."

hurm.....

what should i do..

i can't keep him off of my mind..

though....i'm not text or call him for days...

but....hes always cross my mind...always!

and always will be ~

it simply because....

U'RE ALWAYS ON MY MIND..

1:50am, 20/4/2011

- Father of Sleepy -

i'm pretty sleepy..

n0pe2..i'm s00oooo sleepy....

but i've s0me works to d0..

but..why IIUM's wireless is SO SLOW..??

i cannot d0 my job faster..

have to wait..and keep on waiting..

huh.....makes my eyelid is alm0st....ttuuuttt..... -__-'

- Butterfly in da Stomach -

dub..dub..dub..dub..

the sound of my heart beats..it keeps increasing as my first paper gonna be started s0on..

ya Allah...please help me my Lord...may all the materials i've read will not be forgotten in the exam hall.. amin...

7/4 -> MT

8/4 -> MMS

9/4 -> SBM

12/4 -> RT

13/4 -> MIP

aja2 aina..fighting~!! 
<assume this support is come from Mr.Muchuk> hik3.. ^__^v

- Smile -

i said to my best friend...

"...i'm sad...."

then she replied...

"...but u're always smile...i can't see your sadness.."

..i smiled..and then I replied..

"....in fact..i'm so sad...."

she starred at me...and then said..

"...even u're smiling.laughing.....but i know..u're sad ainaa.."

 

i saw her..and smile again..less than 5 second...i replied.

"..trust me..deep inside my heart..i fell so sad..too sad...." 

and then i smile again.....

.............she smile at me..and said...

"...u're strong my dear..u always hide ur sadness...even i can see your tears...but u still keep on smiling....."

....speechless for a while...

and then i simply replied...

"..i want to make my friends happy...so i have to smile.."

"..smile can make us happy..."

"..its ok to smile even u're sad..because by smiling..u can make others smile too."

"..that is the power of smile....so..keep smiling ^_^.."

12am, 5/4/2011

- Where are You??-

hurm...risaunya...i can't reach him tru his mxis number..

awk tukar no ke my dear? ke awk block saya? ='(

da benci sangat ke awk kt saya? ='(

i faced all this things while my love for you stay still like before..='(

i love u as much as i love u in our happy time..and

it never been decreased even for 0.1%....='(

my dear.....i'm really sorry for all mistakes i've done...

but trust me my sweetie..i never meant to hurt you..='(

i try my best to make u happy..

but sometime..without i realize..i'm hurt u...

i'm really sorry for that...and i'm really sorry...

you know how much u mean to me? ='(

you know how important you are to me? ='(

please come back my sweetheart...please....='(

i really miss u....='((

1:52, 4/4/2011

- Mr Right -

finding love..is not about..

finding someone that we want to live with..

but...it is about..

finding someone that we can't live without...

...good luck guys in finding your true love...^__^v

may Allah always bless us...

- Silence Mode -

silence doesn't mean I LEAVE YOU..

silence doesn't mean I HATE YOU....

silence doesn't mean I WON'T YOU...

silence doesn't mean I'M NOT MISS YOU..and

silence doesn't mean I'M NOT LOVE YOU...

..but..its just a condition when i feel you are no longer NEED me..

- Destiny -

hidup ini tak selalunya cerah..dan tak selalunya indah...kadangkala....kita sangka panas hingga ke petang..rupanya hujan di tengah hari...kadangkala kita sangka bahagia milik kita hingga ke akhinya.. rupanya dugaan dan cabaran datang bersilih ganti.......sedih?? sape yg tak sedih.. muka tersenyum..tapi jauh di sudut hati...hati ini sering menangis.. tapi yakinla pada Allah.... DIA Maha Adil dan Maha Penyanyang..tidak akan DIA biarkn hambaNYA terus berada dalam kedukaan dan kesedihan..di sebalik hujan yang datang..akan mucul sang pelangi yang mengembirakan......dugaan buat hati kita tabah...sabar dan tidak mudah putus asa...

STAY STRONG AINAA!

12:15, 3/4/2011

- My Sadness -

....only for my Mr.Muchuk....

I MISS YOU so much..but seem you are no longer interested to entertain me...at all...='(

i'm so sad..to be honest..i'm so sad..... 

...n0pe..i'm VERY sad...

i used to say..to leave you...

it's not because..i won't you...

but it simply...because..u've someone else...

i know..i know it well...

you are happy with someone else right now..

what i can d0..='(

d0 you love me?? don't you?

do you miss me?? don't you??

is it I'm easily to be forgotten? ='(

is it I'm so meaningless to y0u?? ='(

is it I'm not worth for you at all? ='(

U used to say...U love me so damn much..T__T;

U used to say...don't ever leave U..T__T;

and U used to promise...that U will never ever leave and let me g0..

but now..i'm not more that an abandoned gurl..T__T;

why don't you hold my hand...??

so that i can forever stay by yourside...T__T

it is our promise right? ='(

thats the only thing i most wanted from you...

you know i'll never leave you..

never ever...='(

but now....

i realized..u're no longer want me...='(

u're no longer love me...='( and

u're no longer miss me..='(

WHAT SHOULD I DO??

T__T;

but always remember my pr0mise my dear..

my l0ve for u will never end...and

i will love you till my last breath....

so that I can be around whenever u need me.....

i will stand in the same place...
place whenever you make me happy...
and place whenever you make me sad..
i'll wait for you...='(

take care my sweetheart...='(

always take care of yourself..='(

i'll not bother you anymore...='(

and...

i wish u happy with your beloved ones..

T_T; ..........ILOVEYOU myLove....... T_T;

11, 2/4/2011

- Yippie!! -

saya sangat happy!!!

:: I love U so much Mr. Muchuk ::

4.09, 30/3/2011

- T__T -

haruskah aku mengundur diri??

5:03, 29/3

- Final Exam -

this week..final examinations period will start..31/3

as for me..my papers will be started by next week...

so nervous.. so scared...

i'll be busy 4 these 3 weeks...

to my beloved Mr. Muchuk....

sory if i can't text/call u as usual..

but..always remember...

saranghae oppa~ ^__^

2:23pm, 28/3/11

- Keep Waiting -

hurm..ari ni....the whole day x dpt response dr Mr. Muchuk..

i called him many times..

tp mylove x pick up my call..

Mr.Muchuk sibuk kot..

or probably...saya ada buat silap...

oppa..biane....='(

11.15pm, 27/3/2011

- Waiting -

malam ni..rindunya kt Mr. Muchuk...

igt nk merajuk maen2 ngn dye.....

tp dye ade keje rsnya mlm ni...

sy tggu dye ni...

tak tahu nk buat ape..ngadap laptop..

tp asik berharap Hp berbunyi.....

mata tgk screen..tp fikiran melayang ke Mr. Muchuk..

saya da wat super saver..tp call Mr. Muchuk..

dye x agkt...apa la Mr. Muchuk sdg buat di sana..

saya setia menanti...........^__^' heeee

2.15am
27/03/2011